Notions of joy cloud my eyes.
I can’t see ahead of me.
I should be worried but strangely I’m not.
It feels different, feels alien.
It’s not’s abnormal to most but for me, it is.
What comes next is not in my hands.
Will I continue to feel this joy or will it fade away into the ether?
Yet at the same time I have an overwhelming feeling of dread.
It’s causing a burning sensation in my heart.
Not in the physical sense, but in the emotional sense.
I see the feelings approach me;
I’m on its path.
I see it speeding towards like a train,
I’m on the tracks and I can’t get out of the way.
The war being waged by these two emotions is leaving a crater the size of Jupiter on my soul. The aftershocks created when the crater originated is resonating to all the parts of brain. They’re causing tremors, tremors that can decimate continents and I don’t see a way out of the rubble.